Breakdown, again?

I'm losing myself again. I let myself lose. :'(
Why can't I be strong? I know I can.
But tonight, seemed wrong.
Things have changed. He's changed.
Why can't I accept that??

Why am I being this way?
All of a sudden my heart falls to the ground.
I can't even reach to pick it up.
It gets even harder and harder.
The feeling of knowing...
That time can never turn back around.
But still, I refuse to let myself free.
I bounded myself with losing, hopeless, faithless...
Wishing that things could go back to the way it used to
STOP IT, TASHA! PLEASE!
It's never gonna happen! Snap out of it will yah!!?
Please :'(
My heart isn't that strong. Don't torture yourself , Tasha.
Let him go.
Let him go.
Please :'(