Today and Tomorrow is like Everyday.

Its getting harder and harder and harder. Its getting worse or even more worst!

Hehe macam buat karangan. Ah fuck. When is my day getting any brighter? Each day I've been through was dull and boring. Saje blogging siang2 sbb saya belom mandi, and sangat malas nak mandi. Jadi aku blogging lah dulu. Jap lagi baru mandi. Okay. Today on facebook : BOSAN!! Borak dengan si Hal budak Unisel. Kecoh takde class lah apelah. Dah. Lepastuh? Lepastuh.......... MANDI LAH DERR!

Hehehe :)

Hahah aku pakai tudung. Lawak en? And and tolong jangan ckp aku bajet Yuna. -.-

Tapi aku belom boleh pakai betol2 lah sebab niat tuh tak full lagi. Takkan lah aku nak

kejap bukak kejap tutup kn? Tak kea munafik mcm tuh. So, slow2 :)

I like the guy when I tell him something, he

"Understands instead of saying I know."

Night Arrives ,12:21am

*Did you ever get the feeling of :

• Needing someone to talk to?
• Needing to hear someone singing to your ears?
• Wanting a Goodnight wish with kisses and hugs?
• Craving for pampering and love?
• Sleeping with a smile and when you wake up in the morning to get another smile?

- Well currently, this is happening to me. Oh God, I miss those days. My phone hasn't been ringing for quite a time. And my credits aren't running low. Why can't I, STILL get over this? Babi lah.

" Okay, sorry emo lebih. Biaselah. Dah malam. Paham2 jelah. Aku nh mood tak betol. Malam2 mmg mcm pantat. Paling benci. Time malam lah aku nk 'huhu', 'sigh'. Terok kn? Kalau nk igt balik time 2009 backwards, malam2 mcm nh, aku sebok buat homework kea lepak2 kea. Skang? Yarghhh! Super irritating... Eh, ada call lah ! Bye

I want to make a wish.

Please, don't ever come back. Especially when you've hurted me for several times. I can no longer accept you, even just a " Hi " or a " umm ". No more okay? I'm done. TQ

Natasha.

Nurul Afiqah Mazhar!!!!!

Eee jahat doe kau. Kau pegi Uitm taknak jumpa aku dulu kn? Dalah kt Penang. Dah tak dpt nk hug2 kau. Huhuhuhu :'( Takpelah Eqa. Kau tuh mmg slalu lupa. Sbb tuh aku makin hari makin sayang kau. Belajar rajin2 eh Eqa? Make me and your parents proud! I Love kau lots a lots <3333

Friends you can count on.

This is my lovely Dearra Mira K. We're about the same age. Awww mira sgt baik okay. We shared a lot of stories together kn? Cant wait for you to come to Shah Alam. Then we can lepak2 all the time! ;)

Lots Of xoxoxo ; Natasha

" Good Friends are like stars. You can't see them but you know they're always there.. "

IS PERFECTION COMPULSORY?

" My eyes wants to see something good in you and blind to see your worst.. "

Each of us has our own unique flaws,

It's these flaws , that makes life so very interesting and rewarding,

It binds our lives together.

Instead of looking for flaws,

We have to accept people for what they are and look for the good in them.

Rindu :(

Okay2. Dekat dalam phone dah hilang. Nasib baik ade simpan yg nh :) Alah saje jea nk post. Tak salahkn nk ade flashback2? Haa good. Dah lame dah, sumpah dah lame tak dpt ayat2 mcm nh. Huhuhaha gelakkan aku cepat. Hm.. Lepastuh aku ingat lagi yg phone nh tak bole dgr orang call. Currently phone tuh dah nazak tp aku tataw bile die nk betol2 rosak yg langsung tak boleh on. Die bikin gua PANAS doe! Nak rosak buat2 lah rosak kn. " Ayah, nak phone baru? Pleaseeeeeeee "

A Poetry From Heart

Isn't it fun to watch me cry, all the night
Isn't fair to play my heart, and tearing me apart.

Ohh please, tell me
Why is it so mean
To put me into this

Isn't hard to know someone pushes you to go
But you can't be away.

Ohh please, give me
Back my life
That I used to be

I wish you to be happy because now I know
I gotta let you go.

Ohh please, be happy
For you have someone to love
And its never going to be me.

Ohh dear, its time for me to go,
Far from here...

Originally written by ; Natasha

The Things You Keep Thinking Of

1. EVER BEEN GIVEN AN ENGAGEMENT RING? No :(
2. LONGEST RELATIONSHIP? 1year and 6months
3. LAST GIFT YOU RECEIVED? Gift? Man, that was a long time ago
4. EVER DROPPED A CELL PHONE? Banyak kali. Dah nak lunyai
5. WHEN'S THE LAST TIME YOU WORKED OUT? Never do. hehe
6. THING(S) YOU SPEND A LOT OF MONEY ON? Ciggies, baju2
7. LAST FOOD YOU ATE? Ayah's cooking
8. FIRST THING YOU NOTICE ABOUT THE OPPOSITE SEX? Hmmm...
9. ONE FAVORITE SONG? Goodbye My Lover - James Blunt
10. WHERE DO YOU LIVE? Somewhere not many knows
11. HIGH SCHOOL YOU ATTENDED: SMK PUNCAK ALAM
12. CELL PHONE SERVICE PROVIDER: Maxis. haha isit the right answer?
13. FAVORITE MALL STORE: Any mall that sells cheap but lovely items
14. LONGEST JOB YOU HAD: Unpaid maid at home -.-
15. DO YOU OWN A PAIR OF DICE? Dice? Kecoh. Banyak. aku kan poker face
16. DO YOU PRANK CALL PEOPLE?: Ishh tak baik bodoh
17. LAST WEDDING YOU ATTENDED: Who's wedding ntah dkt Kedah
18. FIRST FRIEND YOU'D CALL IF YOU WON THE LOTTERY: Juno HAHA
19. LAST TIME YOU SAW YOUR BEST FRIEND: Pagi td. Pegi skolah same2 hehe
20. FAVORITE FAST FOOD RESTAURANT: It has to be McDonald :)
21. BIGGEST LIE YOU HAVE EVER HEARD: I Love You.
23. WHERE'S YOUR FAVORITE PLACE TO EAT WITH FRIENDS? Dekat taman. Bajet picnic r hehe
24. CAN YOU COOK? Just mention anything. I'm all good :) cehh
25. WHAT CAR DO YOU DRIVE? aaaa currently no car lah bero
26. BEST KISSER: Grrr shutup! :D
27. LAST TIME YOU CRIED?: Hmm last night, tak kot? ntah
28. MOST DISLIKED FOODS: Vegies :
29. THING YOU LIKE MOST ABOUT YOURSELF: I like being me. Me. I'm me. dah
30. THING YOU DISLIKE MOST ABOUT YOURSELF: I'm........ ugly :(
32. LONGEST SHIFT YOU HAVE WORKED AT A JOB?: Never did a shift.
33. FAVORITE MOVIE? Anything romantic kot. haha
34. CAN YOU SING? Of course. Just that I dont sound good. suka hati lah!
35. LAST CONCERT ATTENDED? I cant recall
36. LAST KISS? Omg, :( months and months ago.
37. LAST MOVIE RENTED: Never rented one :)
38. ONE THING YOU NEVER LEAVE THE HOUSE WITHOUT: my phono
39. FAVORITE VACATION SPOT: Cameron Highlands/ anywhere by the beach
43. LAPTOP OR DESKTOP COMPUTER?: Laptop. Pc besar dan bapak annoying
44. FAVORITE COMEDIAN? Hmm.. Fran Fine
45. DO YOU SMOKE? Yes. A very strong one
46. SLEEP WITH OR WITHOUT CLOTHES? WITH! :) or you want me without.. grr
47. WHO SLEEPS WITH YOU EVERY NIGHT?: Hmm just me and pillow sayang
48. DO LONG DISTANCE RELATIONSHIPS WORK?: I dont know. Depends I guess
49. HOW MANY TIMES HAVE YOU BEEN PULLED OVER BY THE POLICE? uhurmm once
50. PANCAKES OR FRENCH TOAST? Pancakes, my favourito ! :)
51. DO YOU LIKE COFFEE?: On a perfect timing , yes.
52. HOW DO YOU LIKE YOUR EGGS? Double. HAHAH babi jea kan?
53. DO YOU BELIEVE IN ASTROLOGY?: To me its just something fun to read.
54. LAST PERSON YOU TALKED TO ON THE PHONE?: Eqa my superb BFF
55. LAST PERSON ON YOUR MISSED CALL LIST?: K.D.A. dont want to mention that
56. WHAT WAS THE LAST TEXT MESSAGE YOU RECIEVED?: Rahman : " Jason M =) "
58. NUMBER OF PILLOWS?: 3 and needing one more ;)
59. WHAT ARE YOU WEARING RIGHT NOW?: An orange tee and adik aku punye shorts :)
60. PICK A LYRIC, ANY LYRIC: I remember years ago, someone told me I should take, caution when it comes to love, I did.
61. WHAT KIND OF JELLY DO YOU LIKE ON YOUR PB & J?: Strawberry. uhum yummy!
62. CAN YOU PLAY POOL?: I think I can!
63. CAN YOU SWIM? Of course I can. Who do you think am I? Patrick?
64. FAVORITE ICE CREAM?: Baskin's. Oh God, undeniable deliciousness!
65. DO YOU LIKE MAPS? Why Maps when you have GPS? buduhsss
66. TELL ME A RANDOM FACT ABOUT YOURSELF: I hate afternoon naps
68. EVER ATTEND A THEME PARTY?: Sadly, no
69. WHAT IS YOUR FAVORITE SEASON: Holiday season?
70. LAST TIME YOU LAUGHED AT SOMETHING STUPID? Last night :DD
71. WHAT TIME DID YOU WAKE UP THIS MORNING?: 8:25am. Urgent matter at school.
72. BEST THING ABOUT WINTER?: Not anyone could feel winter. -.-
73. LAST TIME A COP GAVE YOU A TICKET?: Eh mat, aku baik taw.
75. NAME OF YOUR FIRST PET?: Ntah. Sayang kot?
76. DO YOU THINK PIRATES ARE COOL OR OVERRATED? argh! Pirates rrrr HOT!
77. WHAT ARE YOU DOING THIS WEEKEND?? Enjoy life while I still can
78. BIRTHDATE: 9th January 19**
79. WHAT DO YOU WANT TO BE?: Me :)
85. ARE YOU ON A LAPTOP?: Tak. Pc annoying babi
87. ARE YOU SMILING?: No. *tgk cermin. yeahh NO
89. DO YOU MISS SOMEONE RIGHT NOW?: uhuhuhu YES! :'(
90. IF YOU COULD GO ANYWHERE IN THE WORLD WHERE WOULD YOU GO?: Paris (:
92. ARE YOU IN HIGH SCHOOL?: Not anymore baybyy
93. DO YOU HAVE A CRUSH?: No. Im crushed!
94. WHAT IS YOUR FAVORITE NAME?: Nur Natasha. biarlah nak suka name sendiri :
95. WHAT COLOR IS YOUR BATHING SUIT?: Bathing suit? Its a leopard print ;)
96. DOES YOUR SCHOOL START IN AUGUST?: Tak r. mcm cacat jea
97. DID YOU GO ON VACATION LAST MONTH?: Kejap. Penat typing
98. HAVE YOU EVER BEEN ON A CRUISE?: haa?
99. DO YOU HAVE A SISTER?: Yes. but I hate to admit that I have
100. ARE YOU UPSTAIRS?: eh mane kau tahu? wow powernye! =.=
101. ARE YOU IN LOVE?: No, not anymore.
102. HAVE YOU EVER BEEN IN THE HOSPITAL?: Yeahh. teman nenek sakit.
103. DO YOU WISH YOU COULD SEE ANYONE PARTICULAR RIGHT NOW?: Yes :'[
104. WHAT JEWELRY ARE YOU WEARING?: Left earing
105. DO YOU WRITE WITH YOUR LEFT OR RIGHT HAND?: RIGHT RIGHT RIGHT!
106. DO YOU OWN ANY TOE SOCKS?: Takde. You belikan lah :)
107. CAN YOU CHUG DOWN A CAN OF SODA IN SIXTY SECONDS?: eww no!
108. CAN YOU MAKE YOUR OWN CLOTHES?: Have tried once but didnt worked.
109. PEN OR PENCIL?: Pen <3
110. WHAT ARE YOU GOING TO DO AFTER THIS SURVEY?: Crack yer head. Penat taw babi

I know I know...

NAME 5 THINGS YOU CAN DO WITH A BRICK: buat rumah, buat meja, buat kerusi, buat perhiasan, baling dekat kau.

I WANT TO LEARN HOW TO: Love properly, Learn properly, Live properly, Manage properly, Kill you properly :)

IF YOU HAD TO BE STRANDED ON A DESERT ISLAND WITH AN INFAMOUS CRIMINAL (DEAD OR ALIVE) WHO WOULD IT BE? Plankton from Spongebob. comel ^__^

BARNEY THE PURPLE DINOSAUR VS. A VELOCIRAPTOR: WHO WOULD WIN? Barney r! Pakai perot die tolak kau mati!

HOW DO YOU THROW AWAY A GARGAGE CAN? I dont do the garbage part.

ITS TIME TO VOTE. THE OPPOSING PARTY OFFERS YOU $100 TO VOTE FOR THEM, AND WILL KNOW IF YOU ACTUALLY WENT THROUGH WITH IT. DO YOU ACCEPT? Ohh nh main rasuah r nh? taknak taknak. Fuck you rasuah people

IF PRESIDENT OBAMA WAS A TYPE OF FOOD, WHAT FOOD WOULD HE BE? pork. Sorry Obama. But I don't like fremasons. Fuckersssss

Never look back, never think regret.

I think I've made the right thing, and I think I should stick with it. " Hey, its not like I'm dead without you, right? " Maybe ended up being a lonely fuckin loser but, not all loser lose. I'm a loser preparing to win again :) Ohh, aku nak carik keje. Hopefully 7E tuh nk amek aku keje +_+

Ponat !

So, I just got back from Johor. Man, Johor was wicked! We did some shopping lah of course. And I bought three shawls. But I dont know if Im ready to wear it yet. Just bought it to wear to class. And, we had a great time with my cousins. Mak Ngah was up the roof. She was laughing, making jokes, she's acting like she's, 18. haha and I like it. Lepastuh malam Sabtu kitorg pegi 'pasar karat' dkt Tebrau I think. Pehh, mata aku takyah citer lah kelebaran die mcm mane. Tapi malangnye, hapah pon takpat sbb mak aku tak join. Die duduk rumah tgk bola (padahal dah tido ) . Rugi mama tak ikot. Boooo. hehehe . Oh! Ibrahim Afellay, so FUCKIN HOT! nak die please? Grr. So I guess, thats all kot :) Toods

Pillow,

Malam nh, aku tidur sendiri.

zzzzz

I love you forever.

Juno, I Love You.

You have grown bigger and stronger. You have been a great companion throughout
my rough days. Eventhough you cant understand me,
but telling you everything that had happened in my life makes me feel much better.
You are absolutely a true friend.
Please, dont ever leave me okay? :']
Tasha.

Writing In The Skies

To be honest, Im not in my best mood this month. All I could ever wish for is to run. Run away from everything that could break me. I don't know whats wrong with me! When everything turned out well, thats when everything goes wrong. I don't know why am I being so fragile, so heartless, so confined. I guess, I dont want you anymore. I dont want anyone. I'm not good with this Love thingy. Maybe after all, it was all my fault. Whatever happen in my love life, twas all my fault. My mistake. I was too mesmerized with sweet guys but then I realised that they aint real. I wanted to move on and let go. I wanted to start a future and stop the past. I wanted to go forward and dont look backwards. I wanted to touch and feel something new. But all I ever wanted is " Someone here next to me, listen and look at me with a smile and said, Thats okay. Im here for you. "

Woahh rindu rindu!

Hehe, lama gile tak online. Cehh lama lah sgt. Baru 2hari kot? Humm bukak2

facebook jea mcm2 bnde ade. And harinh aku pegi buat lawatan paksaan

ke Politeknik Sultan Idris Shah, SABAK BERNAM. huhahuha.

Hmm boleh tahan lah tmpt die slack tmpt tuh jauh dr bandar and diselubungi hutan

dan lautan. Err harap2lah aku boleh tahan dok sane.

Kalau ade mcd kea 7e kea boleh r jugak.

Ni? Ade kedai roboh jea weyh. Mampuih -.-

Baby I love surveys!

1. What was the highlight of your week? Hmm idk.
2. Whose car were you in last? Eqa's car.
3. When is the next time you will kiss someone? Omg, tataw lah bro.
4. What color shirt are you wearing? Black.
5. How long is your hair? Shoulder length
6. Are you good looking? No. I dont think so.
7. Last movie you watched? Hmm tak igt sbb dah lame.
8. Who were you with? My family I think
9. Last thing you ate? Oat crunch cookies :)
10. Last thing you drank? Air kosong jea.
11. When was the last time you had your heart broken? Ah! Just a few hours ago. Babi
12. Who came over last? Came over last? To where?
13. Are you happy right now? No. but trying
14. What did you say last? Arghh!
15. Where is your phone? Here. Next to the remote control.
16. What color are your eyes? Dark brown.
17. Are you left-handed? Nopp :)
18. Spell your name without vowels: NR NTSH BT MHD ZLN
19. Do you have any pets? yupp. cats cats cats :)
20. Favorite Vacation? Anywhere by the beach.
21. What do you dislike currently? GUYS!!!
22. What are you listening to? sounds of clicking, winds, tv
23. If you could have one thing right now what would it be? Iphone! nak nak nak :(
24. What is your favorite scent? Kenzo :)
25. Who makes you happiest? R. idk why but I like when he's around.
26. What were you doing at midnight last night? zzzzzz
27. When is your birthday? 9th January
28. Who has the same phone as you? No one because I'm using the cheapest phone!
29. Last time you went swimming in a pool? Ohh, months ago.
30. Do you read your horoscope? Sometimes. Only when I'm bored.
31. Where was the last place you bought something? Batu Feringghi, Penang.
32. How do you feel about your hair right now? Hmm not bad lah
33. Do you bite your nails? Ewww noo??
34. Do you have any expensive jewelery? Hmm I do have one. Its a gift.
35. Do you have any expensive jewelery? Babi.
36. Myspace or facebook? Facebook.
37. How fast have you driven a car? haha 60km/h
38. Have you ever smoked? Yes and still.
39. What was or is your favorite subject in school? English <3
40. Do you have Verizon? Whats a Verizon?
41. What type of boy or girl do you usually fall for? Guys with looks and plays the guitar <3
42. Do you have any hidden talents? Idk. I can do a lot of things.
43. Favorite Song? Need You Now by Lady Antebellum.
44. Do you like to sing at all? Yes but I dont sound good.
45. Dream Job? Anything fun with a really high paycheck
46. Where does most of your family live? Selangor
47. Are you an only child or do you have siblings? I have siblings
48. Would you consider yourself to be spoiled? Hmmm no.....
49. What was the first thing you thought when you woke up? " Tido balik lah.. "
50. Do you drink? Nawhhh...
51. Know any other languages? Some but tak semua ayat tahu lah..
52. Ever write a coded message? Yupp. Once during Form2.
53. Have you ever been IN a wedding? Owww you. No okay.
54. Do you have any children? No.
55. Did you take a nap today? Yess. And I was satisfied!
56. Who has the same birthday as you? Ntah. Tak tahu pulak
57. Ever met anyone famous before? Elehh banyak kali!
58. Do you want to be famous one day? Yes. But famous for something good okay
59. Any Pet Peeves? Pet Peeves??
60. Are you multitasking right now? Yes! D;
61. Do you like Britany Spears? Britany Spears siape? Britney Spears suka lah.
62. What is your least favorite chore? Lipat kain while watching The Nanny :)
63. Last place you drove your car? Back home from kedai.
64. Ever been out of the country? Banyak kali dah bangg
65. Where were you born? Hospital Assunta, Petaling Jaya.
66. Could you handle being in the military? Huhu takkkk
67. What is your average cell phone bill? Im not using bill.
68. Who are you thinking about right now? R lagi :'(
69. When was the last time you laughed REALLY hard? Mase dekat Kedah dgn family.
70. How many pairs of shoes do you own? Hmm lupe nk kira :p
71. Are your toes always painted? Nop. nanti nak semayang cmne bodoh
72. How many piercings do you have? A pair.
73. What are you doing today? Everyday daily chores
74. Have you ever been gambling? Tak pernah.
75. When is the last time you updated your page? Page ape?
76. Do you like rollercoasters? Huhu not at all.
77. Have you ever been to disneyland or world? No :(
78. Do you have a favorite cartoon character? Yeahh! Patrick Star :)
79. Last thing you cooked? Maggi curry
80. How's the weather? Cold and wet.
81. Do you e-mail? No..
82. What's the stupidest thing you ever did with your cell phone? Ketok kt dinding smpi rosak
83. Last time you were sick? Just a few hours ago.
84. What states have you lived in? States nh ape ek? HAHA
85. Do you wish you could move? Yes :(
86. Do you take all the QuizPox.com quizzes? No.
87. What is your dream car? Mini Cooper S!
88. Have you ever wanted someone you cant have? Yes. Orlando Bloom.
89. If you could be anywhere right now where would it be? A house next to a beach.
90. Are you happy with your life? Huhhh Quite happy okay

Oh come on. Not again!

Duduk diam-diam depan TV sambil makan biskut,

Okay ha aa. bosan nak mati!

Ohh kejap.

Actually Im a little down right now. Ha someone made me that way!

Again and again and again. I know.

I shouldn't have started it. But you just can't stop.

You dont want it to happen but it did.

Eh nak taw something?

Korang memang jahat. Suka sgt nak buat aku down mcm nh.

Kalau boleh aku nk langgar korg pakai trolley.

Okay, taknak aku jgn buat2 nak. Okay?

"I'M NOT THAT FRIGGIN DESEPRATE OKAY? "

Mama Mama MAMA!

Mama, fehh dapatkan angah satu notebook ehh? Thank you. hehehe

What? Its Monday already???

Yeahh for those who goes to school mmg happy lah but me? I still have to do chores! Taknakk!! I'm so dead tired. From KL-Kedah-Jeniang-Penang-KL. But I can't run away from shopping! hehe got some stuffs here. Bangles, baju2. haaa tuh jelah. tak byk pulak ek? Hmm. After all it was a fun holiday trip. Mom and dad seem to have a great time with us. Lagi2 time dkt Kedah. Tengah belaian jiwa makan kuew tiaw basah tibe2 hujan turun. Plus dgn ktorg yg makan dkt gerai2 berpayung. And every Kedah citizen there was looking at us merungut2. Apejadah. mampos lah, tempat korang mcm sakai. Restoran tershibai dkt Kedah I guess. But then, when looking back at those times, sumpah lawak sial. Mama pulak tak habis dgn selupap2 die tuh. Hahahaha. Sume dah terikot. Hmm I guess thats it :)