This is for you, Mama and Ayah :)

Eventho this semester wasn't that rough, but I managed to push myself to the limit till I can't even imagine the end result. Alhamdulillah my 3rd semester result was breathtaking. For the first time in my life, hearing mom congratulating me with a happy voice, although I can't see her face reaction because she was in her room and it was dark, but I know that she's happy. So is dad. I finally made them happy. I can't be anymore happier than this! haha. Alhamdulillah sangat2. Hopefully I'll maintain just like this till the end. Forever keeping my parents proud of me. This is for you, Mama and Ayah :')

사랑한다, 옴마,아ㅂ바 <3

You Can't Get Back My Trust.

안녕하세요.

Him : You
Me : Yes
Him : Buat apa?
Me : Twittering. Why?
Him : Takda apa. U dgn sapa?
Me : My sister.
Him : Oh hujan lebat oh
Me : I know. Same here
Him : you, i miss you
Me : Why?
Him : Nothng. U tak ngntok ke?
Me : Almost mengantok
Him : Go sleep lah syg
Me : Dont call me sayang.
Him : Hmm why?
Me : Cause im not your sayang?
Him : Hmm then be my syg
Me : Why should i?
Him : U syg i?
Me : No. You pissed me off byk kali
Him : Hmm im really sorry okay? kenapa u mrh sgt?
Me : Of courselah i marah. I honestly respect you, trusted you. Pastuh you layan 
i mcm i nh ape jea
Him : Hmm sorry. i syg u n thts why i notty sgt dgn u. but sriously dgn u je. sorry sgt sbb buat u tak suka
Me :Knp you sgy i? You pon baru knl i kan
Him : Sbb u je girl yg rapat dgn i yg boleh cte evrythng dgn i. n im really sorry sbb perangai notty i menjadi2. ive single for 3years u. imagine la a guy single lama2 without any girl. but i notty cmne pun dgn u je. i nk dgn u je. sorry sgt okay
Me : First you pernah ckp dkt i, you single for 3years and you takde contact with any girls. But then i tgk kt fb you ade jea awek2 yg mcm contact dgn you? How am i supposed to trust you when the obvious lie is infront of my own eyes?
Him : Tu kwn2 i lah youuuu. any girl yg i maksudkn i smone special. most of them dh ada bf. n most of them mmg kwn2 i. n ada kwn kt fb just hye2 bye2
Me : Idk lah. I've lost trust in you. I pon tataw lah mcm mane nak gain my trust on you back. You mintak maaf byk kali pon mcm main2. Nmpk mcm tak ikhlas. nak mintak suruh convince kan i pon you dah 'hmm hmm'
Him : Sumpah demi allah i tak tipu. haih. ntah la u. i ckp bnda btol. tak dpt apa pun kalau i tipu u. u tak cye u tny la jack last i ada gf bila. dia kenal ex i. haih
Me : I dont need anyone else to bgtaw i pasal you lah. Masa i tye you yg you pernah tido dgn sape2 kea tak you jwb ape? ' if pernah kenapa? You tak suka?' You pernah dgn perkataan first impression tak? That was yours. I need direct answers. Kalau lah you ade relationship dgn i, takkan i nk tye kwn2 you anything pasal you?
Him : I tak pnh sleep with sesapa pun u. u ni serious sgt lah. i tak tipu u pape pun. janji. dh okay. cn i call u?
Me : No need. I dlm bilik. Bising. Ganggu adik i nty
Him : Hmm okay. dh la u. taknak la marah2. hmm nak u syg
Me : I told you not to call me that
Him : Hmm sorry. k la u i nk tido. bye.


3minutes later...


Him : I miss you

Because of one guy like you, I've lost thousands of trust on guys. Its not just you but when I look back, all of them are the same. LUST! All because of lust. You motherfckers don't get what you want and then you leave. The same thing happen when you get what you want. Puas, blah. You shits don't know how to fucking treat me right, then you fuckers dont fucking deserve me. Go hook up with some cheap whore if you want lust! I can't give you any and wont give you any. Comprende? Fuck you.

Heartstrings.

so, i didn't really mentioned about me performing in college right? yeah. Last month I had this stupid competition and I lost. Whatever. Here's the story.

I knew this guy named Arif Paiman. Die pon ade perform time tuh. Kite dua2 kalah. Mula2 kenal Arif nh rasa mcm nak kene pijak jea die tuh. Sbb masa mula2 kenal die mcm pervert sket. Eww eww gak lah. Then yesterday, die ajak aku lpk. Lepak dkt sarang burung dpn poli jea. So aku pon pegi lah. Emm, die cerita mcm best jugaklah. Byk cerita pasal music die. I shared my part in music too. The one thing we had in common is that we both can play guitar and piano, without going to any classes. Byk benda we had in common. That's why seronok lepak dgn die. Like last night, die mcm dah pisang gila tataw nak buat ape dkt asrama, I asked him out for a drink. Lepak mane2 lah kan. Tapi time tuh ktorg dua jelah yg keluar. Lepak2 borak2, aku ajak dtg rumah sewa aku. Aih, jangan fikir lain. Aku bawak keluar guitar pastuh tunjuk bakat masing2. Aiseymen! hahaha. He has a lot of humor to start with. Actually, banyak benda nak ckp pasal die tp aku malas. Tuh jelah. kbye

Malang tak berbau, tapi aku bau busuk.

Bangun pagi td okay jea. Dok senyum sorg2. Mandi dgn riang, makan dgn riang, pegi class dgn riang. Sampai tgh hari jea, aku jatuh basikal. Tapi jatuh comel2 jea. Balik rumah sewa, makan dan tido. Petang dah takde class tp petang tuh jugak class aku ade buat meeting. Aku nh tataw lah meeting ape. Dah tye classmate sume tp dorg kata " alahh.. dtg jelah..." Benda tuh dalam pukul 4.30. Aku pon terjaga dr buaian mimpi terus siap2 nak pegi poli. Kina cadang nak pinjam motor housemate ktorg. Kesian jugaklah kt die nak kene bawak basikal ptg2 gendong aku lagi. Sebelum ktorg gerak, ade dgr dr budak2 lain yg poli tgh ronda2 dalam poli. Kina dah risau so die pon pakai lah helmet. Aku tak pakai. So bergerak lah ktorg ke poli. Keluar jea dr simpang rumah ktorg kina ckp 

" Tasha, keep your eyes open. Tgk ade polis kea tak..."

Aku pon toleh lah depan belakang. Bila aku pandang depan, tgk2 Kina tgh toleh kebelakang jugak. Aku tgk moto dah menyenget ke tepi jalan. Aku igt Kina nh nk ketengah kan motor tuh ketengah jalan balik. Ghopenye die terus ZAPPPPP!!! jatuh lah ktorg kt tepi jalan. Aku yang dah jatuh nh duduk jea kt tepi jalan tuh mengenangkan nasib ktorg harinh. T.T tgh feeling duduk tepi jalan tuh usha2 lah luka aku. Sume yg sebelah kanan calar. Tangan, pinggang, lutut and kulit ibu jari kaki aku terkoyak. Ade dua bijik kereta yang lalu, takde satu pon yg berhenti. Tiba2 dtg satu kereta yang dipenuhi abang2 poli. Die pon tolonglah ktorg angkatkan motor keluar dari semak2. "Thanks abang2 :') " Jadi, dengan berdarah2 nye ktorg terus pegi poli. Stop kt toilet nak cuci luka lepastuh meet up dgn classmate. Sampai jea dkt cafe admin, ktorg duduklah berehat. Rupa2nya lecturer ktorg nak belanja makan. Aku punye lah....hmm... pastuh ktorg pon dah cerita kt lecturer yg ktorg accident. Die pon terkezut pun adoi dan kami terus pulang kerumah. Best tak cerita aku? Best kan? ftw.

Late Night Blogging.

Annyeong ^^
So now it's already pass 1 o'clock in the morning. Me and Kina is still up. Kina's doing something. Idk. Maybe she's on facebook. Me? Just sitting around reading my Korean Phrasebook. So, I'm a little curious about something right now. Lately, I've been learning Korean language. You know, like learning English. I'm curious, is it wrong for me to learn more languages? Do I have to be labeled ' Korean-addict ' just because I learn the languages? I mean, apehal doh? Haa kan dah keluaq melayu aku. Aku naik sakit hati betul lah orang dok ckp aku nh taksub sgt dgn korea sampai nak belajar bahasa dorg. Cop! Salah kea? Habis kalau kite belajar bahasa omputih tuh? Taksub jugak? Orang yang belajar bahasa France lah, Mexico lah, apelah sume, taksub jugak? Eh, bukan sbb aku slalu layan korea menjadi faktor aku nak belajar bahasa korea. Maybe, a little. Tapi aku suka so boleh aku faham apa yang dorg ckp. Macam belajar English. Kalau kau tak reti ckp omputih, ape yang kau faham bila kau dgr omputih berckp? Aku pernah dgr pasal perempuan yang belajar banyak bahasa. Naneun nega bureowo. Jinjja! So listen, I'm not gonna stop. I don't give a shit if people keep telling me that I'm taksub or whatever. PEGI MAMPOS. Okay? Cause I believe someday, it'll be worthwhile learning. Seriously say, aku taknak jadi orang melayu yang pandai tang melayu jea. Sbb ape? Orang melayu mana reti nak berkembang. Yang orang melayu tahu, copy paste, bragging, pastuh dok kutuk kaum sendiri. LAME OKAY? Maaflah kalau ade yang terasa. Takde niat nak buat orang terasa. Cuma, ingat2lah. Kalau hidup atas dunia hanya berbekalkan ilmu yang disuap sahaja, sampai bila nak kenal dunia? Arasso? :)

Okay, that's all for now. Annyeong ^^

09012012.

Annyeong haseyo! ^^
hehe, it's been a few weeks I haven't update my rusty old blog. How's my 2012 so far? Emm :) So far so good. My birthday was the best. I got back to my rent house and my housemates surprised me with a cake and a bucket full of water and very icky stuffs in it. It was the most memorable birthday ever. Later I upload the pictures. And I even got myself a guitar! WOOHOO! Haha. Okay, all I wanted to say, at this early stage of 2012, everything is going so well. Hopefully it stays like this till the end :) Well, I guess that's all for now. Gonna go grab something to eat.

Annyeong ^^

Happy 2012.

So, it's already 2012. Happy New Year everyone :) Em, my celebration doesn't seem much. Me and my family spent our new year at my cousin's house in Shah Alam. I didn't get to spend it with my friends. Fortunately, I bought myself a new shoe! Heels to be exact. hehe. I can't wait to wear it to class! Tomorrow I'll be going to Shah Alam again to buy myself a birthday present. For, myself. T_T I always wanted my own guitar. So that's what I'm going to buy tomorrow. hehe. My own guitar. I have nothing much to say now. Running out of ideas. K, annyeonghi gaeseyo ! ^^