after i got back to my room, lack of energy, change to my boxers and singlet. straight to bed. i slept for hours and hours. i woke up with a dream inside my head. a dream that seemed to
be making me down. i dreamed of me and my boyfriend, fighting until i cried but he refuse to talk to me. he ignores me. i was like " weyhh apehal mimpi mcm nh! " so actually what happened before i sleep was, i text my boyfriend a 5pages of text message saying how sorry i am for being to emotional today. we barely talk. we barely hold our hands. inside his car, we didn't even look at each other so much. i carried guilt on my shoulder. i saw tense on his face. i was to scared to approach him and ask. i don't know okay?! i'm like friggin scared! :'( so by the time 
we reached poly, and right after i got outside his car, he said " I love you and thanks for today sayang. " well duhhh, i felt relieved lah kan. haa. still, those guilts, masih ade. so sebelum tidur, i sent him message tuh lah. and we're back on track. he apologized too. but i know mostly it was my fault. well, duhh, obviously it was. i shouldn't stay quiet. i should ask him what's wrong and stuff. but i didn't. :'( bad girlfriend, right? :( but bby, seriously, with all my heart, i'm dead sorry! i'm sorry for everything i did. i'm like the person who ruins every happy days. i wish i can be better for you. but i'm gonna try yknow. i'm gonna! :') I love you, Ridzuan Azmi. i love the walk on the beach, playing hide and seek *LOL, and many more things we did. awak buat saya sayangkan awak gilew gilew taw. HAHAH.well, i guess that's all for today. xoxoxo
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