Recalling.

remember when I taught you how to use Skype and then you're getting good with it?

you are by fact the most charming guy ever :')

and called you ' biskut tiger' and you called me ' hup seng ' :'D

you picked up lyrics from songs, and that actually won my heart :)


and you always offered hugs if I've gotten angry/sad with you :')

and then I decided to tell you...

that I like you <3

and then we would ' dodoi ' each other before bed. :') the best part!

he sent me ' Just The Way You Are ' by Bruno Mars. <33>and I gave him a song too by Paramore, ' The Only Exception ' :')

Adam once told me to enjoy the little things in life. I do. And these are the little things I see all day. unfortunately I have no one to appreciate it with. It was my mistake at first to believe that after I met you, things will go differently. No more lies, no more leaving, no more stupid excuses. but, you did it again. :')

that's our little memory. the only picture of me and you but we can't see you :'D

Tenacious Me.

tak sangka dah 10 bulan. kuatkan saya? memanglah aku kuat. walaupun nampak phlegmatic tapi, dalam hati siapa yang tahu ? :') okay, frankly, I'm not over this bastard. I called you that because you called yourself by that word. I miss you stupid. I miss you :'( everytime I woke up, the first thing I do is angkat my phone, tgk if there's any misscall or text messages from you. tapi? TAKDE! :'( kau memang dah lupa kt aku completely kan? just because I told you I'll forget everything about you means kau pon boleh buat the same thing is it? it hurts, kau taw tak?! you're still niggling in my head ! you mean so much to me. knowing that you're no longer around, buat aku sayu. we used to say things sampai 'tersyamsul'. we used to have sweet conversations * mcm org lain tak penah. D.I.C? no :) bastard, knp engkau? remember tak kau penah ckp kt aku kau byk jerawat and aku akan terkejut tgk kau? SIKIT PON AKU TAK KISAH! when i said, you mean a thousand millions and zillion times to me, I don't give a damn about all those. yg penting, I love you :'( seriously, I do. aku rase dah masuk brpe kali aku ckp ' I love you' kt kau tp kau tak ckp balik. sabo jelah ==' Okay Adam Jamil, I don't know what else to say. my heart, my thoughts went obstreperous thinking about you!! kau masih lingering dalam hidup aku, Adam :( You bring big metamorphosis in my life. I hate you for that.

Congrats, baby :')

baby, remember how I used to take care of you? how I took you from your mother after she left you all alone outside my house? when I called out your name in the drain and you would be running out towards me? you were so small at that time. everyday I would find you just to hold in my hands. to cuddle you and pinch you face. then play ropes with you. I also remember there's one time that I thought I'd almost lost you when I found out that you weren't home. I thought I had lost you ' again '. but I kept my faith strong that I'll find you, and I did. from that day, I'd promised to make sure that you'll grow stronger like me. Juno, you and me have no differences. we both are small, kan kan kan? :) you need love and care as much as I do. we're fun and need someone to cheer us up.

and now, getting to see you growing up makes me soooo proud you know that sayang? to see that you've complete my life. when days getting longer, and till the day that I have to be away from you, all I could ever wish for is for you to always stay the same until I get back to you. still the fun, crazy, bangang Juno. you left me scars but I don't mind scars from you. at least I have memories beyond those scars. and now, mom told me you're pregnant. HAHA sayang! you're TOO small to get pregnant. I don't mean by your age but your size lah baby. but somehow Allah has given you 'rezeki' and I want you to take care of them just like how I took care of you back in the days. you can be a good mummy kan? I love you and I miss you Juno :'( I think about you everyday because we used to spent our boring days together. I don't need to get out of the house to hangout with anyone because I have you. you are all I need. you are my cure to every sickness, boringness, loneliness, sadness. you are the reason I stand strong till today. you made me tougher to go through thick and thin. omg, I feel like crying now. :') you don't know how proud I am to own you. Juno, you are indeed my best-est soulmate ever. I love you and I always do.

Really lots of love,
natasha <3

One Sweating Day.

untunglah sume orang balik rumah. kitorg duduk tercepit kat poli. TAPI harinh haha, aku, kina, madiyoncee, sabariah, azza and mia sara decided to lepak2 dkt Sungai Besar. The only town where you can find anything you want. Even karaoke centre! HAHA jamban pon jamban lah kan. puas aku dapat melalak-lalak. oh, gambar nh time dkt kedai kasut. aku suruh si mardiyoncee nh amek gmbr kasut yg aku tgh pakai tuh. nak tunjuk kt mama. sumpah today was tiring! and I got myself a new selendang. yayy ==' and dapat makan KFC. cheesy wedges sumpah mcm *&@6@&^@% punye sedap! dah lame tak makan kann. kesian. I guess thats all. btw, today, I had fun :)

Senyum : Tak Perlu Kata Apa- Apa.

Thanks to Fizah for singing this song repeat-teneously.

HAHA. memandai jea aku buat perkataan sendiri. anyways, harinh mmg hari yg aku kne byk senyum dan tak perlu kata apa- apa. Sebab tgh simpan dalam hati.
walaupun terdapat pepatah kata " jarum jangan disimpan dalam peti, perasaan jangan simpan didalam hati."
cop, ade kea? ade kann? =='
aku malas nk cerita ape yang aku simpan dalam hati tuh. sebab mcm tak boleh blah sket. tp aku tetap nk cerita sbb pepatah tuh ckp " jangan simpan jarum dalam peti " punye pasal.
Once upon a time, aku ade HUGE, HUMONGOUS AND STUPID crush dekat this guy. ehemm, budak poli jugokk :'D aku mcm baru perasan aku asyik usha die dari awal bulan1 tahun 2011.
skrg dah masuk 3 tahun aku usha die.
Matematik aku A so korang diam jea. And latest goss, aku dapat number die. jeng heng jeng. mcm mane aku dpt? ha lu mintak pertolongan membe gua yg profesiosnal katil depan aku nh.
Jantung aku takpayah cerita. it goes 140km/j! bapok laju enn?
aku dgn tangan menggigil mcm orang kne penyakit Parkinson terus lari pegi bilik, konon2 nak tenang kan jantung yg tgh drive Ferrari tuh.
membe2 aku sume ckp " Tasha text lah text lah! apo lagi! ". aku dah tersengih2 mcm bangkai kambing dah tepi katil, bukan atas katil. so, aku text lah.
hmm, first time text pon dah mcm kekok sket. dahlah dgn ' awak saya awak saya ' nye. pehh, mmg formal abeh!
tp kan weyh, silap lah aku nk kenal dgn die. :'( haa nh dah nak nangeh nh.
bukan ape, tp die mcm takmoh layan aku. aku nh ikhlah taw dok?!
tp takpelah kan, i'm nobody to force anyone to make friends with me.
You can come, you can even leave.
walaupun dalam hati, hati aku little by little turning into ashes, tp aku biarkan jea hati aku mcm tuh, tapi aku nak soul aku kuat. :') that's the spirit!
" Life has more to offer. Get the one with discounts and never look for expensive ones. What a waste! " - Natasha's Words of Wisdom. * wisdom lah sgt =='
Okay, so the konklusi adalah, Senyum, tak perlu kata apa- apa :)