It should be, but unfortunately...

hye. so, today is the 3rd November and tomorrow? Yes. The 4th. hmm. Well, it should be me and my ex's 7 months anni but yeah, 'ex'. So I wanna write about it. The first time I went out celebrating monthsary with him. We went out to Sunway. He took me to Baskin Robin for my favourite ice cream. And then we went to Asia cafe. Played foosball with him. Then took pictures in his car, videos. And then we went to Tasik Budaya Shah Alam. Took a walk there. The place where he proposed. Then met his friends there. Sat by the lake watching little turtles. hm. I wished we would still be together. If we do, we're already 8 months. Well, I'm still like this when he now has a girlfriend. Too much luck for me, I guess. Let's just let the time flies. Someday, I'll even forget what the 4th to what month really means to me. :')

Happy it-should-be 7 months, r.a.
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Who am I? :)

okay, this would be very verrryyyy long. hehe. hye! as uolls know, I'm Natasha. The most outstanding*eceh. So let's start. I was born on the 9th of January. Those who had seen my baby pictures they thought I was some chinese kiddo. even now they said the same thing. yupp, i'm a mixture of bugis and chinese. I have 5sibs. The first is my brother, I'm the second, my brother, a sister and another brother. I'm close to my brother, Akem. He taught me how to play guitar, smoke weed =.=' I spend more time with him because he understands me well. I have my mom, my dad. The ones that completes every family tree. Friends? Countless but these are the best ; Eqa Mazhar, Shakeyna Nurul, Natasha Razak, Amier Nasir, Siti Nur Abilah. Enemies? Hmm, dont try to be one. You'll be sorry. Currently I'm furthering my studies in Diploma Hotel & Catering management. I enjoy learning this shit. But I'm not enjoying where my college is located. Sabak Bernam =.=' pfftt. Relationship status? Single and loving it. I broke up with my last ex somewhere in July 2011. So much for his " I love you, I miss you " what-so-ever. Right now, I'm just keeping myself busy with my studies. Boys? Just for fun :) I'm a smoker. A very heavy one. Dunhill's my favourite. But I can go with anything actually. I smoke weed once. That's when my brother asked me if I wanna try. Bodoh akem. That's the last of it. Not gonna try anymore. I don't hangout that much. I prefer the walking alone at the park or going to a calm place where there's no noise. The huha huha, err, not so much. I'm not the sexy kinda girl. I don't go out wearing hotpants/sleeveless outfit etc. I like jeans and tees. Simple as that. I'm short in person. 155cm. I'm a skinny ass too. 43kg. I like shopping. Yuh, like every girl does. I'm a handbag collecter. I have tons of handbags in my room. I could even open a store. haha. kiddinggg. I own a cat. The name's Juno. Juno is my baby. I took care of her since she was just a tiny wittle baby :') I don't wear plenty of make ups. Powder, eyeliner, eyebrows done and a dash of lipgloss. I love my hair. I once cut it short. Okay, regretful. No more short hair. I'm not choosy at choosing friends. You wanna be my friend, with honor. You don't wanna be my friend, yeah, with honor as well. Omaigad, suddenly I'm running out of ideas. haha. okay, I think I wanna stop now. kbye

Makin Hari Makin Kebal

hmm, mentang2 lah dah ade broadband skrg. haa mmg aku dok update blog jelah kejenyeww. hehe. so hyee! eh,I'm like so happy that now all my friends are starting to call me Natty instead of Tasha. haha. Brand new person lahh. I'm no longer that frigid little asshole who whines about guys. Shishhh! I know this month has been so rough on me but I'm strong enough to handle it. No biggie, kan? Yeapp :) Actually, I was happy that everything seemed so clear to me. I've seen enough, I've heard enough, I've had enough. In the mean time, let's just play fun. Go around and say hi to random people. Do something even idiots don't do. I think I missed a lot of things already. So I'm thinking that this would be a perfect time to enjoy my single life. Seriously, I know that being single is a little lonely and sad but hey, look on the bright side. Who needs a guy that you can't guarantee they'll be with you forever? I wanna wait for the right guy to come and tell me that no matter what he'll stand by me and also meet my parents. Miahaha. Humorously but seriously say lah. Ganbatte Nat. Things are much better when he's no longer around, kan? haa. The guy is obviously has better taste. He likes decent girls. =.=' pfftt.

TO ALL THE BOYS OUT THERE :
I'M A HEAVY SMOKER. I GO OUT AT NIGHT. I HAVE MANY GUY FRIENDS THAN GIRL FRIENDS. BUT HERE'S THE THING YOU SHOULD KNOW.
I'M NOT SOCIALLY ACTIVE WITH CLUBS. I DON'T DRINK. I DON'T WEAR SHORTS OR SEXY/TINY OUTFITS. I'M LOYAL TO THE GUY I LOVE AND
I RESPECT MY PARENTS.

ty :)

Walking Towards The Closed Doors.

hey. so here I am, at Shah Alam, at my Mak Long's house and currently on my Kakna's bed. She's sleeping and I'm still awake. I have no one to talk to so I decided to talk with my blog. Hey blog! Sorry I've neglected you for quite a time. Been really busy lately. And I have this little thing that I wanna share with you. So you know the story between me and my ex. Well, pass that one. This one is about that girl once I blogged about. So I was at class and I grabbed her phone. Just to take a little look at my ex's facebook page and see how he's doing. It's just that. Nothing more. So nothing new about him. uh uh and! I knew that that girl is still bbm-ing with my ex. So, curiously I checked her bbm with my ex and as I expected, she's still bbm-ing him. The worse thing happened here is that she told my ex everything about what happened to me when my ex deleted me on facebook. well yeah, considering yourself as a considerate friend? Don't think so. I know that you're trying to become this 'relationship savior' but seriously, I don't need it. We both don't. We're going separate ways and that's just that. If you're thinking that if you had told him everything and he would think " hmm kesian lah pulak aku kt Tasha. " heyy, ain't gonna happen! He has his own life now and so do I. Eventho I see it to be miserable but still, I'm progressing okay? I'm not gonna stay because he didn't. Why waste all my heart to someone who just won't come back? So hunnay, stop being so 'bajet' caring. I don't need you to tell him everything about what had happened to me. He doesn't even care if I'm still alive or dead or married or divorced or having kids or lost one or whatever. HE DOESN'T CARE! ANYMORE! Plus, the way you're doing this just make things worse than before. Maybe later he would see me still being too attached to him when I'm actually not. Seriously, I'm fine for goodness sake. And if otherwise, you don't have to act like you care and you understand my situation. You don't even know me so well so, go to hell. It would be your biggest mistake to know who I really am. and hopefully now you know. I am very pissed off when people trying to act like this. haishh. well I need to get some rest. Really tired. kbai

Big Girls Don't Cry.

hyeee! eeeee i miss my blog! its been so long i havent update this shit. so, here's a little something that i got left off. ridzuan azmi deleted my facebook and finally he already has someone else. what else to say? i'm not good enough i guess. well, wish them both happy. if thats what you think. =.=' so i guess now its my time to shine. gotta get my feet back on track. focus on my studies and get high pointers, insya Allah, kereta datang dgn gembiranya :) Ganbatte Tasha, ganbatte!! \m/