Unbelieveable .

Always said I would know where to find love,

Always thought I'd be ready and strong enough,
But some times I just felt I could give up.
But you came and you changed my whole world now,
I'm somewhere I've never been before.
Now I see, what love means.

[Chorus]
It's so unbelievable,
And I don't want to let it go,
Something so beautiful,
Flowing down like a waterfall.
I feel like you've always been,
Forever a part of me.
And it's so unbelievable to finally be in love,
Somewhere I'd never thought I'd be.

In my heart, in my head, it's so clear now,
Hold my hand you've got nothing to fear now,
I was lost and you've rescued me some how-.
I'm alive, I'm in love you complete me,
And I've never been here before.
Now I see, what love means.

[Chorus]

When I think of what I have, and this chance I nearly lost,
I cant help but break down, and cry.
Oh yeah, break down and cry.

[Chorus]

Now I see, what love means

by Craig David.

The Warm Serenity.

Hyeeeeeeee! ;D hehe so it's already late night. I got my second last paper tomorrow and i tak tidur2 lagi. why tasha WhyYWHYY????!!! so today, me my sayang and dhilah went for a movie. korang taw kan I'm like dying to watch The Roomate kan? sampai kat tmpt wayang, takde ==' still ktorg tgk jugak cerita lain. we watched the Scream 4. stupid with horror kinda genre. here's my advice, kalau kau ade lemah jantung kea, cpt terkencing dalam seluar kea, cepat muntah kea ape, jangan watch this shit. sumpah this movie main2 with your organs. so that's basically what we did today. ha

after i got back to my room, lack of energy, change to my boxers and singlet. straight to bed. i slept for hours and hours. i woke up with a dream inside my head. a dream that seemed to be making me down. i dreamed of me and my boyfriend, fighting until i cried but he refuse to talk to me. he ignores me. i was like " weyhh apehal mimpi mcm nh! " so actually what happened before i sleep was, i text my boyfriend a 5pages of text message saying how sorry i am for being to emotional today. we barely talk. we barely hold our hands. inside his car, we didn't even look at each other so much. i carried guilt on my shoulder. i saw tense on his face. i was to scared to approach him and ask. i don't know okay?! i'm like friggin scared! :'( so by the time we reached poly, and right after i got outside his car, he said " I love you and thanks for today sayang. " well duhhh, i felt relieved lah kan. haa. still, those guilts, masih ade. so sebelum tidur, i sent him message tuh lah. and we're back on track. he apologized too. but i know mostly it was my fault. well, duhh, obviously it was. i shouldn't stay quiet. i should ask him what's wrong and stuff. but i didn't. :'( bad girlfriend, right? :( but bby, seriously, with all my heart, i'm dead sorry! i'm sorry for everything i did. i'm like the person who ruins every happy days. i wish i can be better for you. but i'm gonna try yknow. i'm gonna! :') I love you, Ridzuan Azmi. i love the walk on the beach, playing hide and seek *LOL, and many more things we did. awak buat saya sayangkan awak gilew gilew taw. HAHAH.

well, i guess that's all for today. xoxoxo

Sayang, promise that we'll watch this!

I'm so so so going to watch this. haha ckp pasal roommate, syukur Alhamdulillah aku dapat roommate yg boleh kawtim dgn aku lah kan. this is a thriller movie, and oh i'm so watching it. sayang, harituh i told you kan i wanna watch this one? I'm waiting... hehehehehe. =='

so harinh Saturday, nothing much lah today. my roommate fizah bought kerang bakar for us and dayummm, that was finger ass lickin good! Thanks jah :') well i guess that's all. penat.

Pen, pencil, eraser, ruler, liquid paper, exam paper.

I'm like, weyhhh, sakit otak nh baca buku. and yah know, this is like the first time i stayed up all night studying. gila gempak kan aku? AKJ dalam tangan okay. high level of confidence is all we need babeh. lately nh aku rase rajin gila. tidur pon dah tak rajin okay? omg nh tasha kea? of course lah. semua org nak maju kedepan. plus, i felt much better having a supportive boyfriend. always telling me to keep on fighting " fighting bby ! " aww sayang :') ehh, awak dah takreti nak pulang kea boyfriend? dah berhabuk dah perasaan rindu nh. *metafora. OH-EM-G. cepatlah habis exam oi. taw tak i penat nh taw. kebas otak i fikir pasal ape? marketing? fundamental? OH-EM-G. tasha, jangan nk OH-EM-G sangat lah kan. " okay ... ==' "

okay, i'm running out of ideas. lepu otak saya. byeezz

Dearest Ridzuan Azmi,

I never thought that this thing between us would happen. I never thought just because of a question my friend asked you, it made you think that way. and I never thought because of my jealousy, it cause us to become this serious. I told you I'm not good at being serious. My eyes may not cry reading what you said in our IMs but my heart cracks like only God knows how bad it was. I'm sorry that you thought I was different. You see me a smoker so I must be one social ass girl. I must have a heartless heart. I might not have feelings like jealousness or any immature girls attitude. well, I'm not like that. I maybe a smoker but that's just that. I don't go out socializing, I don't hang out all night all the time. I don't wear sexy and go out flashing myself at everyone. I'm just a girl that lives with imperfections in my life. I'm sorry if how you see I am now is way out of your expectations. I'm sorry. I can never be perfect. I don't wanna be perfect. I just wanna be someone that you can actually accept. I'm trying to take every single critics people throw at me. at least I know I'm not doing so good. I take everything you say with humbleness, I'll make an effort to make things better. if not for me, I'm doing it for you. for us. all those things we in between is very special. I appreciate every single of it. all the happy moments, overnight, lunches together, same outfit colour, chocolates, singing along, hugs and kisses. I can't tell you how happy I am to have you. still, God won't let us be happy all the time. Love is happy when its right and love hurts when its wrong. how am I supposed to tell you this. hmm.. okay. Just to let you know, after all these ups and downs we had, I still wanted to stay with you, because when I'm with you, I would still smile even if my heart doesn't seem to be doing so good. you should always know that,
I love you.

I just hope that we can always make things better for each other. I just, don't wanna lose you :'/