7/8/11

Consider these things, fragile.

you know, things like promises. people make promises and then tend to break it. people used promises as lies. you promise someone something but in the end, you can't grant it. if they cant guarantee you a better future, dont make promises that you can. from what i saw, some people have to go through hard times because of breaking their promises. arguments and misunderstanding and stuffs. promises shouldn't exist i guess. no one can promise you anything. no one can promise you happiness, wealth, health or whatever. so once you made a promise to someone, you better hold it in your hands and make sure you don't let go of it. so is people's heart. eventhough it takes a rock to throw on it to really crush the heart, but words, mann seriously, you dont need a rock then. why is a heart so fragile? because it is consist of feelings. emotions. even if they are invisible, can't be seen nor touched, you'll feel it somehow. when you break your promises, it breaks others hearts. don't try to make this things happen. always remember that we live to rejoice every moment of our lives. have the best of by making people appreciate the things you do for them. you don't think people will appreciate you when you hurt someone right? think about it, just for a second of your upcoming bezillion time.

7/6/11

I Miss You. So Badly Missing You.
I wonder if you feel the same ....


:'(


To : Ridzuan Azmi. xxx

7/5/11

Don't Love Me No More.


The phone rang...

Him : hello...
Me : haa hello..
Him : tgh buat ape?
Me : duduk2. td masa you call i dkt toilet lepastuh kemas rumah. skrg tgh packing2.
Him : ohh.. you, i ade something nk bgtaw you.
Me : ape die?
Him : i nk mintak clash..
Me : ....ohyeke. hmm okaylah
Him : hmm okaylah kalau mcm tuh

I quickly turned off the phone before he finished his words.

" I don't know what else to say. If that's what you wanted, then you get it. Promise me you stay out of my life after this. I don't want to know you anymore. You've hurt me too much. You neglected me. You upset me. You don't even had a second thought to apologize. Obviously you never cared. Everything that we had was memorable. You gave me one heck of an experience of a lifetime. I never had any of those moments with you with anyone else. I always thought that you would be the one but I never knew you would be the one to break my heart. Anyway, thanks for everything. I appreciate it. Hopefully, we will no longer see each other. I don't want to bump into you in college. Hopefully I wont see you at all so that I won't keep on remembering everything that we had. Nice knowing you Ridzuan Azmi. "

7/4/11

In Despair.

its 0407 today. you know what that means. it's me and his 3months anniversary. and guess what? we still havent talk to each other. :') so i spent my day with my friend Natasha Razak and also my brother Hakim to Shah Alam. I wanted to settle all my fees and stuff. and then i asked tacha to drive to Laman Budaya Shah Alam. just wanted to recall back the sweet times i had with him. you know, just in case i will never see him again. i went to look for him at his workplace. not really looking but just walking around there. who knows i might bumped into him, but i didn't. going anywhere in Shah Alam reminds me of him. over here and there. we create little memories and we left them at many places. it puts a smile on my face eventhough i should be drowning my eyes devastating about our problems. problems? hmm, guess i have to put it that way. i can't believe i'll be heading back to college this Thursday. i'm gonna miss Juno mostly. we've had the best times together. kan Juno? :') still, i feel like going back to college because i want to start doing something. and most of all, i just hope after i got my ass back there, things between me and him will be fine as always. Amin.

7/3/11

Is this the End?

let's not wish it is. fuck! the whole week! no text, no call, no nothing! is this what you want? I HATE YOU! GET THAT???!!!

I HATE YOU FOR CRYING OUT LOUD!


are you happy now? i'm devastated. i'm crushed. i feel stupid already. if you dont want me anymore, tell me! i dont want to go through this again and again. I've had ENOUGH! i'm tired of crying, i'm tired of playing the same fucking depressing songs! We should just forget about going 3months. you are probably tired of me too. you don't love me anymore, right? i know. i can't do anything. just leave me if you must. i guarantee you you wont regret because i know i'm not that kinda girl you wanna spend your life with. i'm no guy's favourite girl. :'( just let me go.




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