The Hardest Part

Pretend you're happy, pretend we're fine

I guess that's easier after all this time

Talk about someone else then look in my eyes

I know you still hold on to us inside

But we watched that butterfly fly

I'd give anything just to be with you again but it's not the right time

And I'd give anything just to feel you on my skin

But it's not the right time and it'll never be the right time, will it?

It might never be the right time and that's the hardest part of it

I keep you in my mind even though you've gone

Holding on to nothing's easier than letting go

Stuck in the memory of what has been

Just please don't love another like you loved me

Time doesn't heal, it just leaves me asking why

I'd give anything just to be with you again but it's not the right time

And I'd give anything just to feel you on my skin

But it's not the right time and it'll never be the right time, will it?

It might never be the right time and that's the hardest part of it

And I don't know why I feel this way

If I could, I'd change, believe me

And I know that you feel the same, is it too late for saving?

Oh, here I go again

I'd give anything just to be with you again but it's not the right time

And I'd give anything just to feel you on my skin

But it's not the right time and it'll never be the right time, will it?

It might never be the right time and that's the hardest part of it

Fuck.

Why do i feel like i miss you,
All of a sudden?

Fuck.

Tidak mengapa.

The moment i sat with you, you'll hear all my laughter, jokes, dramas, stories and gossip.

I wont tell you this, but....

I am insecure. But i keep on flipping my hair so you wont noticed.

I am full of jealousy. But i treated you and everyone equally so it wont be that obvious.

I am weak. But I tried to appear strong and tough so i can make you believe that i am unbreakable.

I am a loner. But i talk a lot with random people and just open with anyone so i can make you see how bright i am.

I am nothing. But i tried showing you that i am something so you would be impressed.

I thought i had won your heart, but i lost it instead.

I tried to give you my best but i realized that my best is nothing but a total mess. And why does this rhymes?

I wanted to push you off a cliff, but we havent even started climbing.

I wanted to keep you, but i havent saved any space for you yet.

I wanted to cherish you, but i decided to cut it short.

I thought i was ready, but actually i'm not.

Awaked.

You appear in my dream,
And i woke up.
Fuck this.

Turn Around.

When you thought hope is giving you another chance, that's when things get rough.

When you gave your heart one more try in love, gave another chance in believing someone, doubts starts conquering me.

Intense. Dilemma. Lost.